Today is the 22nd of March and it is time for me again to mourn about how MCR broke up. It has been officially 5 years since the devastating news was announced. Somehow, I find it hard to relate as much to music since then. In all honesty.
I remember watching how Gee was addicted to drugs and booze when they started to get huge (easy peasy pumpkin peasy pumpkin pie MF!). And again during Danger Days, and of course when they broke up. Similar thing happened to Mikey.
What is the best thing that you can do when shit happens to your bro? Write a song about it.
But really, it got me thinking. What’s the whole point?
Why am I blogging?
Gee wasn’t the only celebrity to get depressed. Many other artists also fall into a deep abyss of hopelessness. Remember when Britney went into rehab? By then, she was already a worldwide star, earning tons of money. Recently, during a carpool karaoke session with James Corden, she said that she has already given up on boys.
I know. I felt this way before too.
Fame, along with money, has proven time and time again that it can’t bring you happiness. But the money came with it because they did what they wanted to do. What they loved doing.
Fame is an expose to your entire life. Everyone wants to know what you are doing and where you are 24/7. Privacy is non-existent. Which is why Miss Niao is kept anonymous, and only a few trusted people know my real identity. I mean, not that Miss Niao is anywhere close to being famous, but that anonymity is important nonetheless. There is no turning back.
So I understand why AK wears a mask every time he needs to show his face to the public. He probably has a lot more stuff (and money) to protect.
What’s the whole point?
I blog because I care about myself. I started this blog wanting to improve my financial life, and to be more aware about my alternative ego. And also because something major happened, that made me rethink about my next step in life.
I have this big problem. I always compare myself to others and their achievements, and how much money they earn, etc. I don’t know if this is a common problem to have. Maybe you also experience it yourself. And starting this blog shouldn’t really help at all because there were so many more people doing better than Miss Niao. I started out pretty late in investing in the blogging world.
But recently, I have kinda reached a sorta “revelation” (I guess I’m growing older). I’ve learned over time that it’s okay not to be first. It is okay not to be the richest, and it is okay if I do not earn as much as people younger than me. Because the world is not pretty. It’s supposed to be! People will only show you their pretty side on social media, or on their blogs, but you can never see the pain behind their eyes. I am more than satisfied that my own pain is a lot less than a year ago. As cliche as it is, there are just some things that money can’t solve.
I am glad that many of my readers could relate to me, and I guess that I was interesting enough to have people coming back. It has also contributed to my motivation to continue blogging. Through this journey, I have met many friends online too. Thank you for allowing me to bring value to your lives.
And I hope to be able to continue to do that. I haven’t shared a spreadsheet in a long time, and I might be blogging about a new one in the next post.
You might have also noticed that I have not been blogging as often as I should. I have not found much reason to because I haven’t been very active in stocks lately. I can’t find a good buy yet. But of course, the regular monthly updates will still be around, and there will probably be another post about it next week.
On a side note, Scoot had a 1-for-1 offer earlier this week. Remember when I said that I was going to bring my mum and grandma for an all-paid trip to Taiwan? Well, that resolution is semi-achieved because I bought the tickets already! (Y) Other than having a hole punched in my credit card bill this month (no seriously, it almost created a black hole), I am full of excitement for it! The planning starts now. 😉
So long and goodnight – or at least until the next blog post!